I’ve never been a person who could be a part of the “non” relationship. And when I refer to a “non” relationship I mean the kind that I know won’t go anywhere, but I stay in it for companionship. In fact every relationship I’ve been in has been a long-term steady your-the-one-for-me relationship. It’s obvious from my current status that these your-the-one-for-me relationships have not been my life-long relationship, but they have been important relationship milestones in growth and expansion of the person I am today. My current status as a single gal has lead to some interesting dates, but not anything long lasting. The longest was a three month long debacle that ended because he had a little something, something on the side, so you can see how “stable” that one was.
The truth is I’m not afraid to be by myself and I think that that is rare. Even as all my friends start coupling up and I find myself Bridget Jonesing it at dinner parties I know that I’m not jumping in there just so I can have a date to one of these outings.
However the question looms is it time to start seriously pursuing something less than single? I don’t want to look back five years from now and be a bitter old fool who let love pass her by because she was too proud to try and find it or better yet to let it in.
I hated Match.com it is such a meat market and I can find one of those at the bar. The local arts mag singles ads lead to some interesting prospects, and I had some fun dates, but nothing came out of that either. I’m thinking about eHarmony, but am I looking for my life mate? I guess at 35 that might be a good idea. And shit if it doesn’t work out at least I’ll have some great future blogs to post…
Either way the world will keep spinning...
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